Alec Baldwin on "Rust" shooting incident: It's taken 10 years off my life

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Alec Baldwin on "Rust" shooting incident: It's taken 10 years off my life

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Writer: Heidi Hsia

Alec Baldwin revealed he contemplated suicide

24 Dec - Alec Baldwin has recently opened up about his mental health, revealing that he was in a dark place following the death of cinematographer Halyna Hutchins on the set of his movie, "Rust".

The actor-producer, who sat down on Dave Manheim's podcast, "Dopey: On the Dark Comedy of Drug Addiction," said that his mental was in its toughest place after it was revealed that he was going to be charged for the second time in the fatal shooting.

"The people I was most concerned about, the people that I had the deepest pain for, were my wife and my kids," he said. "Because my kids would see me sitting in a corner, you know, I couldn't even move."

"And I can tell you, it broke every nerve in my body, spiritually, financially... work-wise, my career, my wife, my kids, my friends, my health. I mean what it's done to my health. I mean, if I told you what my health conditions have been since October 21st of 2021... it's taken 10 years off my life. It's taken at least 10 years off my life," he said.

Baldwin admitted that he was worried about his family the most

He added that there was a period of his life where he would take a nap every day for a year due to his mental state.

"When you get to that point where you go, 'I don't want to wake up another day, I'm gonna go', I swear to God, I mean, to talk about it, and it's really kind of unappealing to me because to talk about killing yourself and to actually kill yourself are two so profoundly distinctive things. I think a lot of people, I think countless people think about killing themselves and ending their life, and then very few do. And for me, I remember, I used to lay there in bed and go, 'Oh God, I can't wake up another day and have it be the same. It's the same every day. And I can't do it.' But somehow, I found the faith in God to, you know, not kill myself tomorrow. Let's wait one more day."

It is noted that the case was ultimately dismissed and that Baldwin can no longer be retried.